It's serious how life and death could change one's thought and decision.
Just when i thought that i might put up with all this, one close friend or influential people died in my life, i might easily be affected by the events of death, all the following condolences and sorrow, and all the R.I.P. parts.
It doesn't need to be real relate to the person, you just can't ignore the life come and go away so easily and surprisingly. This situation always make me feel vulnerable.
While some people like me doing nothing, wasting their mind on figuring out what they really like. There are some people like Jobs who already achieved something when he was in my age. However, he passed away suddenly and unexpectedly at 56, and i still live on. That's how life treats us. Cruel and with certain irony.
Today is doom to be blue and upset.